Saturday, July 08, 2006
Hi GIRLS..wow u guys have a long long entry..but that's good i like the idea of u guys updating..seems like this is a Relationship week..so here's pretty, caring and drop-dead gorgeous Jia's reply to all..ahah (;
To my dearest Lychee/Aeroplane..
Hmm..dont mind me saying this...but from what i read about your entry, i feel that you kinda like your close guy friend without noticing it. i never believe in having a VERY VERY close guy friend..good guy friend yes..u can have plenty of that, but to that extent of that very close, i find it hard to believe. its literally impossible..when u2 can talk about anything and everything and to that extent of being so close, i somehow feel that there's feeling between. mutual feelings like r/s feelings, not just friend. i'm pretty sure that he has feelings for you. and somehow i feel that u have too. dont deny it, maybe just a tiny bit of feeling, im sure u have that. i mean why would u feel pai seh or feel bad about it for not calling other friends for breakfast? why must u guys be so secretive abt it? if u guys are just gd close friends then there is nothing to hide. the fact that u guys are behaving so secretly even though u guys are just meeting for breakfast shows something right. secondly, why would u feel upset that he's sitting far away from u when u guys are at karaoke? its a big group, naturally u guys wont be sitting close together, why would u feel sore abt it or even feel bored coz there's nothing much to talk? i mean u can still talk to other friends, why must u talk to him ONLY? and why when he's singing love songs, u feel sad abt it? why? or even think about the lyrics of the song? i mean this definately shows that he mean something to u thats why u feel "left out" even in a big grp..coz he's not sitting close to u and talking to u. i do believe that u are the loyal kind..to SY and u still is. but i feel that..if u really feel something about your close guy friend..then maybe u should reconsider your r/s with sy. im not saying to break up with him or what but im just saying u should think properly what u really want. i dont want to see my best friend continuing a r/s with a guy that she does not 100% like or be in a r/s and at the same time thinking about another guy. it's not fair to sy, to your guy friend. Just think properly what you really want for yourself, make a decision that you know you wont regret in the future..
Now for my Durian..
Well, i dont know why u feel that way..seriously, its wrong to pretend that you dont know your friends when u happen to see them. i mean, what's so ashamed of people seeing u with him? u are not attached..why are u afraid? let them say what they want, it's their mouth, u can't stop it. But if u pretend that u dont know them when u see them then that's your fault. it will only worsen your friendship with them coz they would be thinking like "why she so dao?" then next time u will sure get blacklisted. and if u do that, what will he think? "go out with me really so throw face is it?" u will hurt him even more. I think he's really sweet to go around his house and help find you the pair of shoes. this shows how much u mean to him..well i would be awkward if i were u when he ask that qns, but i glad u answered it in a gd manner. at least u gave him an answer instead of avoiding it and letting him wonder how and why u are being like that. Dont mind me saying this hope it doesnt sound offensive but i believe that you should live your life on your own, not letting god decide if he's meant for u. U are going to be the one that's gonna spend the rest of your life with someone u love. NOT god. so u should chose not letting god chose. i believe that god wants you to be happy and be decisive, so dont leave everything to god, make your own decisions dont rely on god. furthermore when will u know if god approve him? how will u know? i dont know how u will know, but all i know is god wants u to live your own life and be happy. coz he love us all and wants the best for us and the only way to do is to follow your heart and make your own decision. just imagine, if everyone wants god to make a decision for them then wouldnt god be so so so busy coz everyone would be relying on him. He can give U advice but ultimately u are the one that has to make a decision coz it's your life. i believe this is what he wants. ok this is just how i think dont get offended ok.
Okie now for Jia's personal updates..
i've been in a really bad mood for the past week..i think is pms..can u believe how sway i have been the past week..i really mean SWAY! ok i shant talk go into the details coz i will get all mad again..things are picking up so yea..u know..i always thought that good friends whom i have known for years would be more understanding but recent events that happened made me change my thinking..they just dont seem to be that understanding afterall. i'm quite disappointed but i guess im getting used to it. i guess one cant have that much gd friends afterall..so u guys please be more understanding ok...coz i really treat u guys as my close friends and i hope this will never change. ok and so today is 07/07/06, samuel went in to army today..we havent been talking for months..u know yest i saw him online..i felt like telling him how i feel for him for the past 2 yrs..but i mean given our situation and how stubborn i was..i didnt..from his nick..i could still sense that he still like that girl, that discourage me even further to talk to him..even the simplest words that i wanted to say "take good care of yourself in army" i couldnt even find the courage to do so. on wed, his best friend wanted to meet me..at Zouk coz his another best friend is having a last clubbing night before he go army (sam got 2 best friend). as u guys know i hate clubbing so the guy offered to meet me at great world but i didnt go..btw me and his best friend we are gd friends..u know the reason for not going wasn't coz i was lazy to go out after work..it was because i was afraid to see samuel. i know he wouldnt be going coz he hates clubbing too but i just didnt want to take that risk in case he's there. ironic isnt it..i want to see him badly, yet i dont. maybe its coz of the "nick changing" thing thats why i feel that way. his best friend ask me..do u still hate him so much? i said no...though everytime his best friend mention him i'll ask the best friend to stop talking abt him. i dont hate him, i know i dont, in fact i still feel for him..but the reason why i "appear" to hate him is coz im telling myself to do so. i dont know whats the way to forget him or to stop liking him and the only way that i know is to hate him. when u like someone and u2 were so close yet u know that u2 will never have a happy ending, the feeling is horrible. it's worst that u guys had so much memories together. so i came to the conclusion that the only way to forget him is to hate him, make him hate u so that u have no reason to like him..to stop mentioning his name, to stop others from mentioning his name, to stop talking to him, to stop knowing what is going on with his life and most importantly...to not see him. i cant think of what other ways but this..now that he's in the army..i know i wont get to see him..unless we are really that fated to get to see each other on weekend. but its highly impossible. Hopefully..i'll get over him soon..
-- The time has come to bade goodbye. This marks the End of a Beginning --
Jia - Jackfruit was here ):
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